Being back after 2 years is like using a time machine

Geeeez I can't believe that it has been over 6 months that I wrote something in here so crazy! But at least i have a lot to tell now :)
Shortcut of the last 6 months: I have successfully made it through high school. Now I am so done and i just love the feeling that I will never ever have to study for school or you know sit in school! University yes, but not like high school! It's pretty bittersweet though since I got to know so many people there and i will definitely miss seeing everybody like daily, because that's what's kinda handy about school! Now i need a break from studying though, cause it has really worn me out and I am already doing it because  I AM IN THE UNITED STATES ONCE MORE!

This is like the really big news I have to talk about: Getting back to my exchange destination after 2 years. It has been crazy. I was looking forward to the day that I'd arrive once more for 2 years, since the day i left probably and now that it arrived i couldn't stop smiling! Like on the last plane going to Nebraska I couldn't stop smiling like a retard, the old man next to my seat probably thought that he sat right next to a huge weirdo. But I just couldn't help it it was the only silent way to express my joy :D
Anyways when I got out of the plane the moment I've been excited about for so long finally arrived and i just couldn't help but cry! Getting off that lane to the exact same place I left so many weeks ago just felt like I had been using a time machine instead of a plane because it was so familiar! I had the feeling that nothing changed and still everything is weird and different, because so many little details changed and that makes me feel like it's not really the same situation I left. I mean I knew that one before, that when I leave it will never be the same again ever but now that i really see it, I think to myself that its not even that bad!
People changed in those 2 years, I probably changed too and what changed the most is my English! It's kinda bad. I though that it wasn't that bad actually but now being back i realize how wrong I was. IN the first couple of days I often didn't find words to express my thoughts on everything and having to answer so many questions didn't make it easier. I was angry about myself that I just couldn't find certain vocabulary or that my pronunciation was just horrible sometimes.
But guess what it got better and everyday I spent there was just wonderful because i can enjoy the presence of people I could only miss for the last 2 years.
And geeeeez it was a good time! And the end of those 3 weeks I spent in Nebraska I had exactly the same feeling than when I left 2 years ago. The days just kept getting more exciting and more fun and then there was the day that I had to leave! The evening before when I packed I was already very upset which didn't help getting my enormous amount of clothes and presents in a waaay too tiny suitcase. Even when somebody sat on the it it just wouldn't clothes despite my extraordinarily disciplined way of packing this time.
SO then the next day, when I really left ( after a night of watching scary movies with my hostsister, meaning not a lot of sleep) I thought to myself why goodbyes never get any easier! I had promised myself not to cry but when I had to hug my hostfamily goodbye for the last time before going through security I was transferred back to the day in June 2012 when I stood in the exact same place. And I was miserable going through security and I was miserable when the TSA guys had trouble getting my suitcase closed and called me to the front desk, I was miserable helping them close it even though I closed it perfectly fine on my own an hour earlier, I was miserable when I sat on the plane to Dallas reading the goodbye cards I got.

Now that I am back home for over a week already I'm not miserable anymore, because I know that I can always return to Nebraska and can have a good time once more and of course there's Internet and all that so I will always know what I'm missing out on. I had my hostsister visit me here and it was weird having her here in Austria, but really great too. But I got a bunch of memories which will make me feel good every day :)
So yeah I'm trying to be optimistic to have 2 families on 2 different continents and I already have something else to look forward to because I WILL BE GOING TO AUSTRALIA FOR A YEAR STARTING IN SEPTEMBER! 2014 will be MY year, because I will have lived on 3 different continents by the end of it. That's the thinking I'm fond of. Australia is my main goal to go since I left the USA as you might know and I'm excited for the next big thing in my life. I might keep you updated on here, but I'm not sure yet.
Anyways take care! xxxx